Blurry Vision

Too many perkies in my system, I don't know how I can cope And I've been writing all these songs while I'm relying on the dope I've been lost in all these drugs when I've been trying to make it home And ain't nobody ever tell me that that shit would take my soul I keep on writing songs about my exes in the hopes that they come back I've been smoking pass and blunts since I was 10 and that's a fact I told my mama I was hurting, she told me to talk to God So I asked him, why you take my brother, could you spare the rod My cousin told me I was gonna make it since a young age See, I've been running up this paper, now I'm so paid But all this money really don't matter in this life I really need your love, girl, want you to be my wife Now everybody tryna go and running up a couple thousand But I just wanna run it up into the fancy houses I miss my siblings every day I think about you I'm running up these millions, said I did it all without you The pain inside my heart, it feels like a drum roll with a kicking start There's too many people in the room that tryna tell me that they're for me I don't know what I've been doing lately, everything just seems so blurry I'm in this race alone, I lost my uncle Will to fatal loss Then I lost my brother Zay, it almost made me do the toss Then I lost my cousin Niya and that really made me stop Got me popping different drugs, I'm stuck inside a mental box Percocets are my best friend No, I ain't letting you win I done lost too many battles I can't call you my friend The pain inside my heart, it feels like a drum roll with a kicking start There's too many people in the room that tryna tell me that they're for me I don't know what I've been doing lately, everything just seems so blurry