Lost

I always say I don't have scars, but deep down there's a sorrow Always pushed off to tomorrow, and the happiness is borrowed And I say, okay, what am I gonna face today Can I see it in a brand new way Feel the raindrops touch my face But I'm lost, and I'm broken I feel defeated, but they say that I'm chosen Locks on the door with no keys to open You can't take back a word after all it was spoken They say I'm strong, but I feel weak Wanna use my voice, but I can't speak I'm not willing to open up, not even a peak It's something like a giant wave swept me off of my feet With every step that I take, it feels like one step back How can I make it in this world? Now can you tell me that I push the curtains forward, now all I see is black I feel my heart is like a target, like the one on your back Take a puff, and then another I've been trying to take the stress out my body, but it's still not enough Just one drink slowly turns to a dozen All your peers gonna tell you that you're living it up But I'm lost, and I'm broken I feel defeated, but they say that I'm chosen Locks on the door with no keys to open You can't take back a word after all it was spoken They say I'm strong, but I feel weak Wanna use my voice, but I can't speak I'm not willing to open up, not even a peak It's something like a giant wave swept me off of my feet They tell me I won't make it, but I know I got talent I've been writing these songs until the sun comes up I see ambition in your eyes, don't let it be a surprise When the results come back, not looking like much And when it all falls down, will you hear me out I got way too much to think about My head is spinning round But I'm lost, and I'm broken I feel defeated, but they say that I'm chosen Locks on the door with no keys to open You can't take back a word after all it was spoken They say I'm strong, but I feel weak Wanna use my voice, but I can't speak I'm not willing to open up, not even a peak It's something like a giant wave swept me off of my feet