Pain Heals

I know that I messed up, but I just wanna make it better Swear why I miss you in my life, that's why I'm writing you these letters Too much pain for me to bear, but I just smoke to ease the pressure I've been spinning since I lost you, all I see is rainy weather And I know we're not together, but I wanna kiss you I keep on staying in my head, but that's because I miss you Regrets keep flowing through my brain, because I know what I did to I really wish I was mature enough to solve the issue You and it fell in love again, but I just stayed the same Don't think I'll ever love again, it just won't feel the same Nobody did it like you did, I can't forget your name Like Rae, I love you, but that love won't take away the pain I know it's too late, but I realized that you were my blessing I really wish I would've stopped and thought just for a second And you know that I can't forget about November 2nd Or April 8th, that was the day we made a new profession And they say pain gone heal, but I don't think it will Going through the motions, but I still feel numb I told you if it wasn't you, then I was done I watched you hold another man the way you used to hold me My heart been hurting for so long without you, I'm just lonely I lost myself to try to find you, but it hurt me deeply I couldn't bear it anymore, I focused on the TV I hope that one day you gon' take me off that block list If we don't ever speak again, I'ma be heartless I know I did you wrong, so you can say I'm not shit But I'm just hoping that one day that we can stop this When I tried to find another girl that wasn't you They didn't do shit for me near as much as you would do You helped me get my brain in order, thank you for that too And you just taught me how to love, but I ain't followed through And I would cut off the whole world to finally come home And without you, it's safe to say I'm terribly alone And I would cut off the whole world to finally come home And without you, it's safe to say I'm terribly alone