PTSD (feat. Varyant)

See, I don't know why my feelings cold Why they take my soul and leave me alone Seems like I can't see and I can't breathe This pain inside my chest, it's magnifying on the scene Like what these girls gon' do for me, they ain't looking for love I wear my heart around my sleeve and now I take that as a dub This rap game so flawed, it's just the image we hold These niggas throwing parties while they broke until they get old You see, I try to talk about my feelings, sometimes I get lost There's depression mixed with anger, PTSD, final boss Sometimes I close my eyes and all I see is dirty shots I got two in my body and got one up in the top I see my brother crying out, I told him not to watch I see the pain up in his eyes, I know he heard it from the loss It's that post-traumatic stress disorder music for the people I know we all been going through it, this shit getting evil Like why they always tryna talk to me, I'm tryna work I got trauma running through my head, I'm knowing that shit hurt What they tryna talk about, they always tryna talk me out Everybody always tryna claim they found a better route I been in my mind all my time and I ain't coming out It's just like I'm locked inside my head and gotta run it out See, I don't know why my feelings cold Why they take my soul and leave me alone Seems like I can't see and I can't breathe This pain inside my chest, it's magnifying on the scene Like what these girls gon' do for me, they ain't looking for love I wear my heart over my sleeve and now I take that as a dub My heart not on my sleeve though, I felt pain and let it go These trials and tribulations made emotions go to waste Don't give a f*ck about love, before I get pape then I'm okay I'm riding with a Glock to keep me safe, but I don't wanna blam it She left me broken, praying liquor fix the damage And if it don't, then I don't know, I take the mic and talk it out This shit my therapy session, I hope trauma subside I'm staying optimistic cause I used to wanna die Won't take my life but it'd be better, I was never here It felt like Jodie, scared to face the world ahead of me Now I need riches, put these bitches in some double C's Put these bitches in some double C's she spinnin' back again But hoes don't bring no peace And my heart can't be broke again See, I don't know why my feelings cold Why they take my soul and leave me alone Seems like I can't see, and I can't breathe This pain inside my chest is magnifying on the scene Like what these girls gon' do for me, they ain't looking for love Wear my heart over my sleeve and I take that as a dub