SOUL CRY

Even though I'm only 17 my heart been hurt My soul been crying out for help cuz it been getting worse And everybody say I changed but I just made it work Feel like my problems and emotions put me in the dirt My mind been racing for too long I have no sense of peace Depression banging on my chest till I can barely breathe And I been wrapped in my emotions, send some help for me Who knew that living on this earth would come with such a fee I been waiting on my daddy to become a father But even as I'm getting older he just getting farther It's to the point where I don't even have the energy to bother Roll my pain inside a wood and smoke it like gelato Every morning when I wake up I look in the mirror I hear my heart and soul keep screaming while no one can hear em But then I step inside the booth and get that instant feeling Aye like DJ turn me up I'm bout to reach the ceiling And I know, how hard it gets When your at your lowest And I say that everything will be a okay You don't gotta be afraid I know my momma worried bout her son, I'm staying strong Even though I don't admit it I regret my wrongs Getting high to ease the pain had only made me numb I keep my feelings bottled up inside until they gone I talked to Kyiah just the other day she said I got it Yea that's my sister and I love her like I love nobody I miss my twin seem like he gone but he still right beside me September 10th is just a day that I can't put beside me I spend my days inside my head and spend my nights alone They say keep busy with your music and stay in your zone But I been feeling like my head been spinning on it's own I need someone to hear my call before I lose control Growing up I kept a smile so I could play my role Ain't ever want no one to know that I would cry alone Im in the shadows with my demons like my heart been gone And if you listen, you can hear my feelings in my songs And I know, how hard it gets When your at your lowest And I say that everything will be a okay You don't gotta be afraid