Forcing Forever

It's been a year And two months Still don't know what I want Starting to feel like I've been Wasting my time Where was this going? What were you showing? Where were you when I really wanted You to hold me? What was you smoking? When you were needed You stood there frozen I Could easily find another I'll never Forget the words, my mother Would tell us You deserve the world and more Go back to the drawing board You can't force a forever Why did I do it? When I just knew it What was I thinking? What was I doing? Where was my mind? This whole damn time Ignored the signs Can't shake these soul ties Gifts are cool But what I want Is your attention when you come home I want to feel your touch Your love Don't wanna feel alone What was I doing? Why did I choose ya? I thought that I loved ya More than my music I knew back then We should've stayed friends So I'll take the Blame for how it ends I Could easily find another I'll never Forget the words, my mother Would tell us You deserve the world and more Go back to the drawing board You can't force a forever Why did I do it? When I just knew it What was I thinking? What was I doing? Where was my mind? This whole damn time Ignored the signs Can't shake these soul ties