Green Tea

I’ve been in my head so much I’m getting kind of dizzy Overthinking this and that The choices keep me busy Running like olympics Hope to stumble Hella trippy Mm Guess that gene ain’t miss me Talking to myself No psilocybin but I’m hazy Been this way so long I’m convinced that I’m just crazy Heard I could get help and I’ve been thinking bout it lately Family say I need some Jesus Say I’m being lazy Friends just say I need to turn up Stop crying like a baby Cuz talking ‘bout my issues is a no no And looking strong is king Swinging back and forth just like a pend’lum Often thinking “am I just alive, not really living?” Searching for the yellow bricks that lead me To the answers of existence Oh how my heart has stiffened From words unwritten Self-harming indecision Inner division Digging myself a grace no kidding But it’s just my normal day Ancestors do my bidding I need a fixing My angels they be snitching With no tongue bitten So I stop and listen To learn a better way If you let this world will turn you bitter like a green tea Wondering where you went wrong like momma and ya aunties Carr’ing ‘round those hand-me-down weights ‘Cause if you let this world will turn you bitter like a green tea Wondering where you went wrong like momma and ya aunties Free your heart and don’t delay If I do the work for myself Maybe we’ll be free If I do the work for myself maybe we’ll be free No more time for la di da I’ve got to do the deed Gotta find a way to get us some peace