Am I Old Enough Yet

Am I old enough yet Said am I old enough yet Workaholic with no end in sight Time management isn't real in my mind l feel lazy and worthless all the damn time How am I not productive every night I take no breaks Bring all the stress back into me when I'm awake It loves to take Does it seem fair? Maybe not but I love the taste I'm in love with stress She's got a beautiful face so Am I old enough yet to die with no regrets Am I old enough yet to enjoy success Am I old enough yet to be able to confess That I live a life that's fully powered by stress They say you're too young to understand What these memories mean at the very end Am I old enough yet to miss those old times Am I old enough yet that I can say goodbye How you been lovestruck for almost two decades Hopeless romantic, what do I say I been looking for love when friendships fade away Filled with heartbreaks so I drown in 808s Now they're memories, with no inner peace Why stay in her life if I can be in her dreams Toxic mindset, I've decided There ain't no saving someone so misguided Am I old enough yet to die with no regrets Am I old enough yet to enjoy success Am I old enough yet to be able to confess That I live a life that's fully powered by stress They say you're too young to understand What these memories mean at the very end Am I old enough yet to miss those old times Am I old enough yet that I can say goodbye I've lived half of my life Where am I even going What is there even left How did I fall into the same old repent Of wondering where my childhood fucking went I hate how much I fucked up in my past life Hate how I still think I be half right A car in fire is a sight for me A failed escape to all those memories so Am I old enough yet to die with no regrets Am I old enough yet to enjoy success Am I old enough yet to be able to confess That I live a life that's fully powered by stress They say you're too young to understand What these memories mean at the very end Am I old enough yet to miss those old times Am I old enough yet that I can say goodbye