Dreams Or Nightmares

Does life have meaning for all of us I think the world has nothing to offer us You leave your mark on some people close to you While others die before they even notice you I work on stuff, that when you die doesn't matter I give up All this effort ain't worth much If heaven or hell were on earth I wouldn't care The world already has real life dreams or nightmares Working hard Everything is paying off I can see the light All the sacrifice I count the cost I know it's worth a lot Everything I've made It's from a higher vision I can't see it from the planes I live from higher up In the hands of the almighty Alpha, Omega, Creator of Earth Beginning, and ending, all made from the dirt My life has a purpose, it's purchased with hurt Nothing came easy But I'll stay in the fight, yeah, no Nothing came easy But we'll be winning tonight Dreams aren't worth dreaming if they aren't worth dying for so Why am I living if living isn't even the goal Why live if that means losing my soul Why dream if I'm always left in the cold Reality strikes and I have no control Why keep fighting when my heart doesn't know Yeah, it always lies to me But something deep inside of me has me hanging on Yeah, it always lies to me But something deep inside of me needs to keep me strong Does life have meaning for all of us I think the world has nothing to offer us You leave your mark on some people close to you While others die before they even notice you I work on stuff, that when you die doesn't matter I give up All this effort ain't worth much If heaven or hell were on earth I wouldn't care The world already has real life dreams or nightmares Felt like the blue skies wasn't good enough The shadows made me hide inside all the bluff Funny how I lied about my suicidal thoughts So I can kill these voices by my own gun shot Took too much adderall, how did I survive Second time went to bed feeling paralyzed Yeah, I made a song about it all before But the voices and shadows haven't left the war Cause I can see them clearly messing with my brain all night How the shadows and the faces wanna play in my mind Felt stuck to the bed and could only see Shadows on the wall saying die in peace My mom tryna sleep too with her insomnia So if I woke her up She'd be stuck in my dystopia I hear the voices, shadows, the feeling of death Hide it all so I can have my last breath Have you ever felt so alone but still People try to help but you didn't really care That whole night I was ready to die on their terms I felt like life was something I didn't earn So if you're wondering about me If you think I'm supper happy I be hoping people ask me How I've been instead of acting Like all alright, okay Existentialism took my brain but I don't know which way