Save Me

I've been screaming for help but nobody cares I just wish this narrative hopefully clears I done poured my whole fucking soul into this And yet I still think I'll have regret when I finish it Said I'm not scared of death, I'm scared of what's after Said I'm done believing in only a pastor I wanna talk to God if he exists to let me know I made the right choices in life before I go Don't wanna waste time cause there's only one life Can't give up no matter how hard my body can try Gotta stay strong for my parents to see me win Just hide those deathly thoughts with an easy grin I done wrote this album to show who I really am But got no help from it, so it's all the same plan Make music acting like I've gotten over it all Trapped on the bad side of my favorite wall Just stuck, but music helps me cope when it gets tough They think I'm just waiting for some dumb luck To get famous and make it and not be hated Like if I gave a single f*ck I'd rather defuse my demons than blow up Maybe if I get help people will show up Funny how I'm scared of death as I get older So the people who hate on me should really grow up I've made it past today, that's a step forward How am I always on edge sitting in a corner If making it to 25 was the goal My brain and death would just live in even close quarters So can you please shut the f*ck up When I was going down in life you didn't come up I'm tired of waiting for safety and stopped saying (Why won't you save me) F*ck all of y'all acting like you tried At this point I'm more of a beaming light Cause I showed my flaws to this fucking world And maybe someone out there can continue their fight With demons and voices in their head Please know you're not the only one fighting in bed I hope my pain can help you or is my brain just pretending That this is all to make me think there's a happy ending I know venting here isn't right to move on I know my mental is something I should improve on But I've survived til now so that's a small dub And God will be the judge of it when it's all done You came back to see how I was Now you leave with more than enough It took screaming forever for someone to save me That I saved myself from ending up more crazy I'm done