The Lost Metrolink Freestyle

Left this place for paradise But my body's filled with parasites Feel like I'm stuck I'm paralyzed And I can't seem to realize How I can't no, how I can't no Get over the people back then no Who hated me forever But I can't really blame them either Can't believe I'm old enough To say shit like back in high school it was rough Man f*ck I'm actually an adult now Who cringes at that old me tryna act tough No wonder all of them ghosted me As soon as Covid had entered the scene Yeah I know, I'm annoying as shit, we get it I just wish I knew my old friends regretted Meeting me and how they left me Am I selfish for holding on to those memories Our school never had grad nite or prom But my friends made plans and I wasn't involved I know people didn't like who I was But the few who did, I thought there was trust I'm just a nobody to that shit old place But I still thank it for the memories it gave Even now I can't escape it I found a girl I love who's sacred to me And I tried my best to make it work But it's all a fucking mess Cause even two years later I still love her And she doesn't even know How to discover I haven't gotten over her and those past times So I fill my heart up with land mines In a future, where I don't know If I ever will see her again Or people from high school wanna be friends F*ck me man I can't help but show I'm weak What they said got under me Maybe I should die in peace Maybe then the memories leave, leave