I don't do well

I've come a long way since the day I picked up my music for it to stay To the day I die but I do not know why I see all this hope it helps me cope When making these sounds, I am earth bound Stuck to the ground, these hours I count Just keep adding up to the day I f*ck up I know that's what's up I feel so messed up In my head I know I don't do well With all these stresses I can tell That this is my moment of -of clarity In these words I don't expect your charity In a line in an order got that disorder You got that manner oh my god this is fire On a loop in my head telling me that I am dead Seeing colors of read, seeing colors of red (yeah yeah) I've come a long way since the day I picked up my music for it to stay To the day I die but I do not know why I see all this hope it helps me cope When making these sounds, I am earth bound Stuck to the ground, these hours I count Just keep adding up to the day I f*ck up I know that's what's up I feel so messed up I've come a long way since the day I picked up my music for it to stay To the day I die but I do not know why I see all this hope it helps me cope When making these sounds, I am earth bound Stuck to the ground, these hours I count Just keep adding up to the day I f*ck up I know that's what's up I feel so messed up Gimme just one reason why I should cut it early and die Leave the body, here I lie, in the secret, turn a blind eye Don't act shy, here we rhyme on a sequence on time Keepin', movin', back in line, mystery in the brine In the darkness here I lurk, on the Kush here we spark Out of sight, its so dark, wont see me, leave a mark I am hidden at the park, late at night when no one barks With these sounds I leave a quark, in these depths I am a shark