I Don't Want To

I don't want to ever lie again To myself or anyone I love I don't wanna fragmentize my presence into parts I don't wanna feel the violence Of my sudden unexpected rush I don't wanna miss the sights for stepping in too far Hmm hmm hmm I don't wanna be above and I don't wanna bear the poison When I handle my voice to talk I don't wanna be a lover I don't wanna be a boyfriend In fact, I don't wanna be a boy, at all Hmm hmm hmm I don't wanna keep the vision That was blasted into both my eyes And makes me look for things eyes shouldn't be looking for I don't wanna keep sitting All alone when I'm trying to hide Whenever I feel like I shouldn't be a part And I don't wanna say you even though it's all that I can think about Hmm hmm hmm I don't wanna surrender My youth I don't ever want me to be consumed by the misery And I've never wanted to Set rules I don't wanna give me the same authority I see And I don't wanna say you even though it's all that I can think about But you know What I want and what I don't And you know I don't want to I don't want to I don't want to I don't want to I don't want to I don't want to I don't want to Cause there are no words for what I'm avoiding (I don't want to) There are no words for the pain I want to flee (I don't want to) And there are no words for what I want to be (I don't want to) And there are no words I can call you peacefully (I don't want to) There are no words that are free from agony (I don't want to) I know once I'm wordless then I will be free (I don't want to) I don't want to I don't want to I don't want to I don't want to I don't want to I don't want to