Last Goodbye

I'm on the ground sitting down with these new thoughts And I want to make a new song Then the words come flying in my mind like a plane nose-diving then crash I get lost in a New world I explore it I Get called by these voices They annoy me and make me look back at my choices Asking me if it was worth it Then I try to avoid it They make me remember then I try to stop them from talking but it's never working I start to remember the laughing the mocking, how then I was walking alone but the haters were stalking How they'd make me a topic And I'd cry in my room just wishing they would stop it I needed a friend to get off it I needed a friend I'd talk to strangers but most of them thought I was strange at least they would listen And I didn't care about ages opened a few of my pages made an acquaintance Made a few friends but distance isn't the best it's kind of the end Seconds of silence Cuz some of them died I feel like I'm cursed Like I'm forced to always be alone with no one to trust I think about all that I've done and I've said and I'm stuck in my head and I'm lost I have a couple of friends now but really they don't fit the part Cuz the ones that do, they go And they never say bye Alone in my mind Alone all the time Alone waiting for the last goodbye Nineteen had a setback Reached out but her people never checked back She was sad and no one ever gets that Wish I spent a little more time 'fore she left Now I don't know if she's dead, but I know I could relate Didn't want to hear the comments she was afraid Something about her smile, It was always super fake She was going through a lot, nobody was there to say everything will be okay Seventeen in my class Bro super cool, everybody had their eyes on Never said a word, but some people had to spite don't know why And nobody could tell he too was suicidal Well that's the thing we're always misunderstood Judged early by the way we walk in the neighborhood They see the smiles on the faces, all the times that were good They only ever look at covers, never open the book I know a couple good people I could call friends Always for a while then it all ends Something always happens I can never tell when Then I'm back to these haters who just don't care They always leave They go and they never come back to me Why do I care much it's probably cuz no one ever looks after me Nobody cares instead they just laugh at me Alone in my mind Alone all the time Alone waiting for the last goodbye Alone in my mind Alone all the time Alone waiting for the last goodbye