Refusal Of Divulgence

My throat is closing You'll never see it coming I never feel alive Everything feels contrived Somethings scratching inside but No one can read my mind Refusal to divulge I'm too scared to open up I can't see the point In going on When I'm this fucked up My skin is crawling I'm so appalling Running on empty Theres a pit inside of me Grown so big It's bursting at the seams I've been waiting Since I was 13 Refusal to divulge I'm too scared to open up My jaw is clenched Hypoxia is gonna win this one I can't catch my breath Cuz I'm always on the run I can't keep trying You all saw it coming I can't keep lying But I can't seem to speak Does my silence make me weak? I can't beat it out of me. Refusal to divulge I can't fucking speak up I can't see the end of this I'll always be fucked up Do everything I'm told But it has never been enough Refusal to divulge I can't keep this up Refusal to divulge I've made my mind up.