CAN'T LET GO

Can't let go These thoughts in my head Wanting me dead Breaking me down Don't wanna face the truth Can't let go These nightmares and dreams They all feel the same They're breaking me down I'm not the same no more I lost it all I cannot find it again I lost myself I cannot find me again Avoid the truth I sit in silence again Tired of acting like I can be saved Truth be told I really love pain Truth be told I know what I'm doing when I leave everyone behind Trap myself just to see if I can escape And if I can't then my demons win Only 21 but I'm sleeping on my deathbed already You don't wanna know what I do for my sanity Looking at the bottle and it looks like a friend to me Looking at the pills and I pray to god I stay strong Sadness in my mind been going on for too long All the temptations are hunting me down Hating myself is my favourite vice Cause myself pain when I'm all alone No one can stop me I'm in control I lost it all I cannot find it again I lost myself I cannot find me again Avoid the truth I sit in silence again I must be immune to Cupid cause I will never love myself mhm I hope my mom still got a receipt cause I wanna go back to the afterlife I will never see my self worth So leave me alone cause I'll never change Self-pity with no self-love makes the man who I am today That's the perfect recipe for an ugly mess That's the perfect recipe for what I am now Wait, can't change my ways I am who I am I don't wanna change I'm staying the same I've ran out of love F*ck your petitions I'm staying myself F*ck your conditions I'm leaving on my own I don't wanna stay here no more Can't let go These thoughts in my head Wanting me dead Breaking me down Don't wanna face the truth Can't let go These nightmares and dreams They all feel the same They're breaking me down I'm not the same no more I lost it all I cannot find it again I lost myself I cannot find me again Avoid the truth I sit in silence again I wonder if anyone will ever wake up and see that I'm special, see that I'm special I wonder if anyone will ever wake up and see that I'm special, see that I'm special