Sexual Conflict

Disconnect from my sculpture I puff out like pastry in an oven Shrink down to my size I wonder If it shows that I'm always tired My thighs thick as peanut butter Patterns and scared cover it all over Feeling big yet so small what am I seeing? I wanna drown my problems and never be sober As I carve out my insecurities The scars leave the all memories Don't wanna sexualize my body But that's what a woman's body means Cover it from the world Trapped in a box of mirror that scream Don't you look pretty? The oceans rip tide is pulling me away From what I know is reality But if I stay will I be ok? Will I be able to change? I'm anxious in my own skin With a body like yours I wouldn't blame you I'm forgetting where I've been I'm drowning my problems cause I'm always blue As I carve out my insecurities The scars leave the all memories Don't wanna sexualize my body But that's what a woman's body means Cover it from the world Trapped in a box of mirror that scream Don't you look pretty?