To No One

It's only been a year I feel like I've aged ten I'm still not used to you not being here But I've learned to pretend I'm counting down the days Until you should be turning 28 Mom wants to get you a cake But who's gonna blow out your candles? And who's gonna raise your son? And who will be with me when the rest of our family has gone? This is all wrong I know where you belong But instead we're singing your birthday song To no one It's already been a year Somehow I survived Except for the parts that could only appear When you were by my side I don't want to keep track of the days It's a countdown to nothing anyway It's not like it's going away I just don't know how I'm gonna handle The years left ahead alone Carrying the language that only you and I know This is all wrong I know where you belong But instead I'm writing song after song To no one