scared // hopeless

Ever since 6th grade, I've had a fear That the people I trust will leave me And every time I'm loved, I disappear Cause I can't let my mind get hurt again If only I could feel like you do I'm getting tired of falling in and out of myself I know I can't control my emotions I've become so obsessed with these notions Get me out my head, listen to yourself Do you hear what you're saying There's no need contemplating I'm always in the way And eople probably think I've gone insane It ain't easy, always feeling uneasy I know you won't hurt me, but I'm unclear Like stars in the sky when it's cloudy And f*ck it sucks when you're right here And my mind won't let me fall If only I could feel like you do I'm getting tired of falling in and out of myself I know I can't control my emotions I've become so obsessed with these notions Get me out my head, I don't feel like myself I don't hear what I'm saying When I start contemplating I'm always in my way And I sometimes think I've gone insane It ain't easy, always feeling uneasy It's been weird lately Oh? What do you mean It's just, every time I feel like I start to get better, something always brings me back down again What's wrong this time I'm scared I'll die in my sleep But maybe I'd be relieved I just feel- And it might feel- Hopeless