Hide and Seek

I lie awake inside my bed Endless thoughts race through my head And I'm so tired that I can't sleep Cuz when I wake I'll be knee-deep In that game I am forced to play So the ones I love won't run away Mom says that I'm a good boy Feels like I'm just another toy All the girls use to satisfy Knowing I will never be their guy All their words are full of lies I don't know the reason I still try Cuz every time that I try I end up the bad guy All I feel way too weak In this messed up game of hide and seek I have to make myself known So that I don't end up alone At least that's what they all tell me Perfect's what I need to be Or else I'll never fit in And these girls will never let me win Love's never been kind to me Taken girls are all I ever see Stuck in endless cycles of first dates I get no love, just left with hate Will I ever be the one Should I even try when I'm so done Cuz every time that I try I end up the bad guy All I ever do is overthink In an ocean of love, I'd probably sink Seems I've looked everywhere I can Like I'm a part of some bigger plan And all I feel is way too weak In this messed up game of hide and seek Grandma tells me that it's not a crime To wait for the right girl at the right time Oh, she says there's so much more in store That I haven't found what I'm looking for Be patient, it'll be okay Your day just might not be today Then why do I feel ready I'm coming to find you You don't have to hide from me anymore Please come out from behind that door And we'll end this silly hiding game And our lives will never be the same Maybe all of my doubts and fears Have held me back after all these years Maybe I am just too weak For this messed up game of hide and seek Oh, this messed up game of hide and seek