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I'm exploring the motions, my motives I ask myself, "Why do I feel this way?" Nobody knows my deal, the commotion If you saw what went on up here, what would you say? Feel unsure while I look in the mirror I see an empty canvas that's full of space So many things to work on and fill in If you had every color, what would you paint? Spent some time building trust with myself But I just wanna throw it away I am restricted, all I do is hold me back I am the only one who blames myself And why do I lie, when I could just tell the truth? Time is passing by And I've yet to make use of it I really don't know why (I don't) I'm impulsive and don't think deeper Spent some time building trust with myself But I just wanna throw it away I am restricted, all I do is hold me back I am the only one who blames myself And why do I lie, when I could just tell the truth? If I saw me all by myself, I wouldn't want to walk up to me I don't mean to look intimidating, it's just that I tend to sit and think I am restricted, all I do is hold me back I am the only one who blames myself And why do I lie, when I could just tell the truth?