Wait, It Gets Worse!

It's the temple I just write how I feel And I got no rhyme or reason I'm just hoping I heal I've been dealing with some demons While perusing the field And all these people wanna see me I'm just hoping they're real I need a warm embrace My head hurts I can barely feel my face Staring at the moon While I reflect and make a change Every bone inside my body Telling me the way But I stay there and stay scared Of altering my fate The weight that's on my shoulders People sharing stories of their pain I internalize don't know who's there for me It's the weight of the world I just pray 'til the mourning And that karma will come I've made mistakes and I'm worried What my future will bring What my children will sing And the woman I'll marry and What my parents will think The music I'll make and All the hearts that I've chinked And the man I'll become and All the values I'll bring I've been dealing with the death of my friend The loss of my love And how these bad thoughts of Depression won't end I've met some beautiful people and Those I'll never forget I've had my heart shattered Fragments of the past in my chest Ima walking contradiction But a man nonetheless I want to make the others smile When my life is a mess I'm not the most religious but I'll be the first to confess I spill my heart through all these words You see the blood in the text I use my feet to cross the river Towards the life that I lead Use my brain to make decisions Of where I wanna be Use my hands to craft an art That only i'd ever bring I use my tears to water seeds To make me wiser and breathe It's the human experience I welcome everybody to my mind Understand the kind players And field you're in All the pain that I'm dealing with With every flow and song that I make I'm really hoping that you all feeling this