Why Is My Trauma a Joke?

Why is my trauma a joke I ain't even figured it out Panic attacks in my house All the pain that I have buried Is begging to shout This is not good for my soul Hopeless and destined to drown I saw the clearest of visions Physically sick on the couch I see your eyes every evening Sweat and then wake up From the heavy breathing I feel a weight on my chest But it won't go away cause I don't got all the reasons I am a mess Victim of circumstance I see you I'm seizing I want the worst for you I really pray that you stop breathing What is the reason What is the reason What is the reason What is the reason What is the reason What is the reason What is the reason What is the reason Yeah, Yeah Jadon you changed Don't even recognize Only your name You brought a smile to faces Now the only thing that I always hear is the hate You had the brokest of hearts But I don't believe that's your fate I don't believe that's your place Manifest all of the bullshit you see every day She left your heart in the waste She made you cry every day Think of wisdom you gained She made you harbor pain Won't apologize for a thing I know what I'm saying You should be proud that here Everything you are she ain't The lord to thank You went through that like a champ You went through that like a king It's worth it the pain Yeah It's worth it the pain It's worth it the pain It's worth it the pain It's worth it the pain What am I saying What am I saying It's worth it the pain What am I saying What am I saying