Close to God

On this baron road im on Its getting old im lost Fightin these demons got no reason een to hold em off Watch me pour my heart And go nowhere far Runnin in circles goin further then I go restart When im alone these thoughts take hold, jus smoke it off I been high for so long think my mind is gone I aint got no remorse Think its too late for sorry Nearly dying, that’s the only time I’m close to God I’m tryna run away, whatever thats gon numb my pain Got clean, I’m still the same, dream bout the things the pills could change I miss my fucking Mom, I miss all of the better days When the only shit to worry bout was ball games Every day an off day, my mind is all hate Lil boi that lost faith, wan grow up to be Scarface I hate my own reflection, I hate my fucking brain I ain’t got no connection, to a single fucking thing Last place long as I’m me, no I could never win F*ck a trophy, f*ck a chip, I think I’m settling Reached out to God but he ain’t get none of my messages Up for a second then I crash, I’m just a pessimist On this baron road im on Its getting old im lost Fightin these demons got no reason een to hold em off Watch me pour my heart And go nowhere far Runnin in circles goin further then I go restart When im alone these thoughts Take hold, jus smoke it off I been high for so long think my mind is gone I aint got no remorse Think its too late for sorry Nearly dying, that’s the only time I’m close to God Tryna save me, who dat You stayin w me, prove dat This life move too fast My time up, lose track Give me one more chance so I could mess it up Lemme make one more stand, maybe I’ll step it up Ain’t got a single plan, like what I’m in this foe Can’t no one understand, what I be feeling doe Can’t no one heal my soul, these demons still control Everything I love the most, I watch em kill my hope