Hamster Wheel

I haven't ate in a day I haven't slept in bout two I'm a perennial fool Jus a directionless goon Tryn find his way out of Jersey Home hurt me, but lack the courage To leave, Mama still worried bout me Peak in her head when I sleep Still in the heat with long sleeves My wrists is dirty Paid my dues, God reimbursed me the fee I'm unsaved, forbidden fruit I was so curious to see I had a taste, I've grown to love while resentj you I pray for pills or a pistol I'm done with docs and hospitals My mind riddled with these psychopathic urges Started smokin at 11 I been burnt since Snortin dope, jus tryn cope, not be a nuissance That boy sick, that poison, what he using Abusing substances, for my amusement I'm snoozing right through my prime, yeah I know that I'm stupid I don't think I can do this, I'm too spent, might lose it God wan me follow him again, I live by different rules I was tip-toeing round death when I was skipping school Trying hard it don't mean shit, and bitch I'm living proof I put this blade up to my skin when I just think of you Whatever they do, I just do the opposite I'm too out of it, my mind just b wandering I'm near my limit, soon might just go call it quits