Depression. / Lately.

Still remember everything that roams in my mind How I felt the very first time I ever wrote down a line When my world came crashing and I sat down and cried A pen and paper where I could write on was the only thing I relied on What was the purpose for me to keep on and fight on When every single person has always tried to keep my lights off Now I feel I should be the only one to rely on F*ck it I'm a be the only one to turn my lights on This is how I feel I wish you felt the same Now a moth to the flame I just stay in my lane I try to speak on something that everyone can relate Just so they can turn around and talk down and hate ok But when you needed help who was there with hands out But if I get shot I'm sure you'll leave your man down Women f*ck you and leave and try to act the victim That's why everything in life for me is now planned out I'm writhing in sin I'm writing to you Hoping you give The time and attention whenever I spit Depression an doubt are holding me back I'm tired of feeling like the greatest but somehow there's always something that I lack To you I feel like I'm not doing enough To me I feel like I'm just running laps I just deserve better Wish all these women just heard better Acted more clever and wouldn't cheat Cause that's just something we don't compare I need someone there One who gon' always care The perfect pair When I'm tired she becomes my spare In a world that we can't repair So what's the deal Tell me if this love is it real? If it's not then it's sealed A broken heart that will never heal I need my words to resonate I need my son to know his fathers great Another man shouldn't take my place I pray to god every night and day