what if i DIED? would you love me then? (Conclusion)

I don't know how to let go To end this once and for all I hear the angels they're calling They're telling me to come home I'm sorry I couldn't be stronger I should've loved you a bit longer I'm taking drugs with no doctor It keeps my demons deep in their slumber I should be a better father I should be a better brother I should be a better husband It's my fault I couldn't love you I should be a better friend I'm the reason you left I'm the reason you blame the rest And I'm the reason why heart break is all you expect from them I should've been a better son to my mom It's like nothing I do is ever enough What's it like to feel loved My heart and my soul dark From all the times it was torn apart I'm sorry this was the only way I'm sorry I couldn't keep me alive, but I couldn't take the pain (Anymore) I don't know how to let go To end this once and for all I hear the angels they're calling They're telling me to come home I'm sorry I couldn't be stronger I should've loved you a bit longer I'm taking drugs with no doctor It keeps my demons deep in their slumber You should be a better uncle Why can't you see that you had it all Your son needs his father and now he's alone You're so selfish And all this pain I feel is your fault I love you and I wish I could take it all back But that's not how my pride works and you should've known all that I feel like I'm going crazy Things haven't been the same lately I wish your soul could forgive me I took your love for granted and look what It caused My heart and my soul dark From all the times it was torn apart I'm sorry this was the only way I'm sorry I couldn't keep you alive, but I couldn't take the pain (Anymore) I don't know how to let go To end this once and for all I hear the angels they're calling They're telling me to come home I'm sorry I couldn't be stronger I should've loved you a bit longer I'm taking drugs with no doctor It keeps my demons deep in their slumber I don't know how to let go To end this once and for all I hear the angels they're calling They're telling me to come home I'm sorry I couldn't be stronger I should've loved you a bit longer I'm taking drugs with no doctor It keeps my demons deep in their slumber This project is meant for the all kids and all the people out there That feel that they don't have someone that can listen to them Or feel that they're alone 'Cause you're not I deal with depression and anxiety on the daily and This project is meant to spread awareness Hopefully people can understand the severity of the situation All it takes is one conversation to change someone's life And if you have that power wouldn't you use it? Be the change Save a life