A Good Kind of Nothing

(Thank you, for everything you've taught me I have never learned so much Never realized what really matters so deeply And I wouldn't have if it wasn't for you Thank you for being the person To make me realize I do want to give everything to someone) I hear you're well, isn't that so? Our friend says so, and she might know Better than I do When it comes to you I saw you once after my show I missed your show, invite unknown But your voice rang clear First time since last year I don't associate this key with your name anymore This is the last song that I'll write in it for you, estranged But do you wanna know something that might seem kind of strange? I felt nothing I thought the next time that we'd talk, my heart would break again But you were looking at me, talking to me, feigning kind And I just noticed how you seemed much bigger in my mind And I feel nothing A good kind of nothing (I want to have a life with someone A home I want someone to be my home To be my home To be my home) I'm doing well, if I say so And I say so, but you don't know And I think for once I'm fine not knowing much And I was so calm, but you seemed so daunting The days dragging on, the nights you were haunting Without ever knowing you were But I hope, from my heart, you find home in her I don't associate this key with your name anymore This is the last song that I'll write in it for you, estranged But do you wanna know something that might seem kind of strange? I felt nothing I thought the next time that we'd talk, my heart would break again But you were looking at me, talking to me, faking kind And I just noticed how you seemed much bigger in my mind And I feel nothing A good kind of nothing I didn't know I could feel so much And I'm choking up 'cause you blessed me, yes you did But my god, am I so relieved That now I feel nothing The best kind of nothing (So I guess somewhere, most likely really far down the line Those things will just go to someone else We might never build Rome But maybe we can build a world where we're in each other's corners Happy holidays)