Change My Mind

You pop up like weeds in the pavement Like nicotine cravings With nothing to say, I guess You show up, turning dreams into nightmares Brush me off right there Couldn't we decompress? I'm ashamed to miss you, did you know that? You're my biggest issue at the moment And I guess I wish you would just go back To being no one to me I don't mind your slandering You puritan at heart, you freak But I resent that you convinced me No one would ever love me like you did Did you mind that I got free From your white picket fence wet dream? 'Cause you resent that I'm the best thing That you'll ever find And god forbid, I change my goddamn mind You hop up on natural drugs like You can't let them subside Or sutures might open up You grow up with the pace of how paint dries Molasses to realize A future with me's not a gun I'm ashamed to love you, don't you know that? They say I'm above you at any given moment I don't have enough of you to be so sad Did you have enough of me? I don't mind your silencing You egoist, you eager leech But I resent that you convinced me No one would ever keep me like you did Did you mind that I got sick And couldn't be your holy gift? You won't confess that I'm your mess And I'm one of a kind And god forbid, I change my goddamn mind Your pride's too big for your body, baby Games you rig, that's your hobby, baby Hide your cig made from my body, baby You don't dig me once I'm naughty, baby I don't mind your mean deceit You spineless fraud, you're just so weak But I resent that you convinced me No one would ever make me smile like you You are never welcome back And if I let you slip through cracks Oh, it will be 'cause your knees bleed From begging for us to be fine And god, I just might change my goddamn mind