ILY, ILYN

I'm facing my fears head on Pretending the tears are gone I'm looking at what went wrong like it's a remix I feel what I feel right now It changes at speed of sound I lurk on the hallowed ground of a D-R prefix I sit on her holy couch I tell her I'm better now But she sees you walk around inside my mindscape I go home and on the way I say two words to your face Did you catch my stomach ache on your goddamn tape? If only it was as easy as picking petals, babe I love you, I love you not, at least not today If only it was that easy, maybe I'd walk away I love you, I love you not — I don't know, honestly F*ck it, if I'm gonna be your no one I still get to be somebody Talking shit, but I know I'd shut my mouth If you came clean and said you want me If only it was as easy as picking petals, babe You love me, you love me not I love you God, what the f*ck? I'm making bad poetry Outlandish analogies And bullshit analyses of why this ended It's not like you'll ever stop You know what the people want The righteousness that you flaunt, you can't defend it I bet it got easy, love When I shrunk to nothing, but I'm sick of my dormant lungs when they were made to Blow down your paper house You built with your running mouth That sometimes I think about God, why'd you have to go like that without a word? At least when I left, I made sure To be as candid as I could I know it did more harm than good But if you loved me like you loved to say Then why'd you let me slip away so easy in July? If I could ask you why If only it was as easy as picking petals, babe I love you, I love you not, at least not today If only it was that easy, maybe I'd walk away I love you, I love you not — I don't know, honestly F*ck it, if I'm gonna be your no one I still get to be somebody Talking shit, but I know I'd shut my mouth If you came clean and said you want me If only it was as easy as picking petals, babe You love me, you love me not I love you God, what the— Soon the world will villainize me More than it already does I'll keep on picking flowers blindly Cause extinction all for us I'm not in love, I'm not in love The petals lie to me one by one If you don't want me and it's honest I love you not, I pinky promise If only it was as easy as picking petals, babe I love you, I love you not, at least not today If only it was that easy, maybe I'd walk away I love you, I love you not — I don't know, honestly F*ck it, if I'm gonna be your no one I still get to be somebody Talking shit, but I know you'd shut your mouth If I could lie and say I'm sorry If only it was as easy as picking petals, babe You love me, you love me not I love you God, what the f*ck!