Invisible Ink

The more that time passes, the worse that I feel I must be doing it wrong, I don't know how to heal Every day's another scalpel to another part of my anatomy Today my palms are bleeding And I spill onto your sleeve and You're mad at me I yell at my mom"Can you not be my therapist" And hang up the phone, 'cause I know I did wrong by him I just wanna feel like I didn't lose all I had (That's too bad) I cry in the dark and I clutch to my chest the words That tore us apart, and buried us dead in dirt I just wanna try everything to just get back (God, that's really fucking sad) The more that I love you, the less that I'm steady I must be loving you wrong, but you knew that already I picture in September that you won't even remember how to talk to me And then it's five years later And there's still nothing you hate more Than my honesty I'm kicking myself 'cause I know that there's another me Who didn't let go and still has you not just in her dreams And just because you end it, doesn't mean that you walk unscathed (Hey) If only I could show-and-tell the scars where you once were It's humbling to be this covered in your signature And just because I love them, doesn't mean I don't wish they'd fade But there's your first name on my collarbone Nickname on my neck, alone Then coupled, our first date And your birthday on my spine of stone Endearments on my thigh And your thumbprint on my hip in blue My stomach stays untouched 'Cause I can't hold down the thought of you The color of your hair in my veins Initials on my shoulder It's bittersweet they'll be erased Someday when we get older Think I've got you out of me Then one morning I will blink And see I'm covered again In your invisible ink The more I get through it, I'm back at the start I must be treating them wrong, your invisible scars