Pain

Ahh, Ahh Everyday I feel the pain Swear to god everyday feel like the same day Honestly never thought this shit would go away Told myself everyday that I don't wanna stay Never did a drug to help me cope with the pain Since this shit happened things haven't been the same I was fourteen with suicide on the brain And my emotions were the hardest things to ever tame If I wasn't here I wouldn't see tomorrow If I followed my plan I would feel no more sorrow Where I live ain't tough But I still grew up rough Never found myself happy Always thought 'bout givin' up Miserable everyday Hard to get out of bed Knowing that there's gonna be another pointless day ahead No matter what I say The pain won't go away So now I tell myself I don't wanna stay Everyday I feel the pain Swear to god everyday feel like the same day Honestly never thought this shit would go away Told myself everyday that I don't wanna stay Never did a drug to help me cope with the pain Since this shit happened things haven't been the same I was fourteen with suicide on the brain And my emotions were the hardest things to ever tame I took some pills and brought them shits to school Ain't do that shit 'cus I thought that it was cool Was gonna OD thinking it'd be painless Was the best option that would've left me stainless Everyday I had thoughts of suicide Damn I just wanna motherfucking die Man I hate how things ain't the same Why did things change Now I'm left with all this pain Everyday I feel the pain Swear to god everyday feel like the same day Honestly never thought this shit would go away Told myself everyday that I don't wanna stay Never did a drug to help me cope with the pain Since this shit happened things haven't been the same I was fourteen with suicide on the brain And my emotions were the hardest things to ever tame I didn't stay because I had hope, I only stayed because I had a heart I only stayed because I wanted love, but then you left me alone in the dark One year later I was still feeling you, and all I wanted was to play the part And the way it made me feel, and the way it made you feel, is something that's forever left a mark on my heart They say that Jaesohn always tryna love Well that's because I've got the biggest heart No matter what they try to do, feelings I wish I could undo Its shattered remaining pieces won't ever fall apart Three years ago I was suicidal I would've used them pills instead of a knife But if I didn't love that girl, and if she didn't mean the world I swear I to god I would've took my fucking life Ooh, ooh Ooh, ooh