Chapter One

When you was with me I was at rock bottom But You left before I blossomed Now you watch me bloom from the outside of my garden You can't bear the fruit from the tree you was choppin' You never used your manners from your life I had to pardon Your flight had departed, the second our downfall started I wish I missed the part when You went and broke my heart in You wasn't there for me so the mirrors started talking Reflecting your imperfections was loving all your flaws and Deceiving words and seductive lies I was lost in I wish I saw the signs telling me proceed with caution I wasn't cautious Now I'm dealing with the repercussions You beatin' on me percussion No memory like concussion There's nothing to be discussin' You think you're the shit I'm flushin' Almost walked the plank after takin a few losses Not really one to cuss but I said f*ck it came close to kickin' the bucket And you buggin' I do this for my sisters and my moms coz I love 'em Only put God above 'em Got love for my pops but at the same time f*ck him Coz you acted like a goose the way that you always duckin' I know you was up to something And to my next girl hope you ain't like my ex girl Don't wanna hear about the new dude you bumpin' I tried not making assumptions But you know the college nights and the Alcohol consumption You chasing the hot bottle while I was chasing the wallet Dreams that I follow a visionary that God sent But you like to gossip And I know you got some ass that's why you like to talk shit I know you you like to flaunt it Give me a beat You know I'll Snap on it Ill do it without the gauntlet I told em I'm done walkin' She told me to run forest Don't treat me like no chump Ain't no chump like Gump Forrest I'll jump, now you slump, make you run your bum pockets But despite all the hardships I'm living life regardless I don't care where my father is And we stay working til there's ice where my collar is I don't no need no uni degree And I definitely need no scholarship Mistakes from past generations coming back to haunt us Quick to look at the problem but turn blind eye to the causes Let me catch my breath I need to take some pauses But I ain't finished yet so please hold the applauses Sometimes I sit and Pray wondering whether the Lord is Real, Because we all still live in real life horrors I'm seeing right through your aura I hope to see the day of my unborn sons and daughters But will they ever see a world with no guns that's warless 'Cause I believe in miracles Jesus walked on waters I hope it stops whatever the world's evil brought us Family divided by seas and borders Family trees branches and sticks and leaves are fallin' Crackin' the pavement in which I walk in I could've took my life overnight 'cause the devil torment But God showed me the light I still woke up next morning Lords grace I was born in I'm so grateful for my mother and my mothers love as a woman Never thought it could be so warming Queen to the Hive never leavin' or dormant Whether it's a breeze or it's stormin' But I still had so much anger that I was hoardin' I'm holding on to, and now I'm running out of storage But This only a small fragment of my story Coz my life is a verse I don't need no fuckin' chorus