Alzheimers Angel

(Pipe that shit up, TNT) Oh yeah she an Angel, but cursed with Alzheimers Don’t want to restrain you, that conflict cause fires Growing up I shamed you, running round with small timers Trying to get my name up, doing wrong it’s all finer You might not know, but you got a big heart Or remember that’s fine, you did spark This fire in me, I get start Decisions I made, you a big part I’d be lying, to say it ain’t hard to see This decline, in yo’ memory And overall health, you steadily Losing grip, of what’s reality You wake up every morning seven on the dot, and causing chaos Thinking someone came in the night and stole from you, you blame us “Did you take my clothes, did you take my ‘mote, or take my containers?” “I’ma call the police get you put in jail, tell me where they are” I be falling asleep ‘round six-thirty, but I’m used to that I don’t sleep at night ‘cause my own demons, I’m fused to that That ain’t Gertrude it’s the Alzheimers, when I get ‘cused for that I don’t tell outsiders how far you gone, ain’t a use for that Bro just sent me a vid’ last week, about some remedies they doing I ain’t even bother to watch it, something about some memory influence Damn, truth be told, I ain’t want to get my hopes up I know, what’s going on with you affect the both us Matter fact, all us in the crib, it’s like we getting choked All the norm’ was strangled out, and now it ain’t nowhere to go You might not remember but, Nana was the first words I spoke And thinking we gon’ have to bury you, put knots in my throat I think as soon as Grandad passed, is when it started getting worse It wasn’t no issue, it’s just age, how we saw it first As time progressed the more we saw, the more it hard and hurts Your mind is dead but you ain’t gone, and all that departed in bursts You took care of all of us, so we gon’ back that You ask about that girl sometimes, and I been had that I woke up crying next to her, I dreamed of Grandad It’s a warzone in my head, it’s worse than Baghdad We ain’t okay but if you ask, then we tell you we are And we gave up trying to explain, because you gone to far I wish that you could see the damage, that this do to Ma’ Because we know it ain’t intentional, but still it’s hard To see what was a strong women, oh so hopeless The lady that would do for all, you always selfless I know the feeling I be hopeless, but i’m selfish Unless it’s you or family, my kindness melted All us feel the same pain, but we keep it hidden But I told ma’, don’t go put you in no assisted living ‘Cause let ‘em treat you bad, and I go pull a bunch of killings And not just men, I wouldn’t care to do the same to women Oh yeah she an Angel, but cursed with Alzheimers Don’t want to restrain you, that conflict cause fires You might not remember but, Nana was the first words I spoke And thinking we gon’ have to bury you, put knots in my throat