Dark Thoughts

When I entered this race Every lyric from a dark place Full of dark thoughts and heartbreak Suicidal motives and video games Simulations that I used to play Now I simulate every day Nothing stimulates a dead brain I can't take the pain away Suicide might be the only way But I don't plan on quitting not today Full of dark thoughts and heartbreak Learned to use my mind in my hearts place Learned that Milan is really far away Hurt me one more time and I might break away You're not a bad guy we just ain't the same Same goes for you and all the time you've taken I don't think I need your help hope I'm not mistaken I can see your body, and it's slowly breaking Don't you dare die oh Mother's heart will be breaking Think on this stuff daily like a snapshot Max be taking I think he's next up an inspiring creative I would feign pride, but I'm not really suprised Unlike some of you, I be looking through my eyes Unlike some of you, I keep a couple words inside I feel like sometimes you don't need me I feel like sometimes I'm too greedy I feel like sometimes you don't see me If there's a God out there can you hear me I feel like sometimes I can't take it I feel like sometimes we won't make it I feel like sometimes I really hate it I feel like sometimes Lyndon saves it I feel like I don't have the ingredients I feel like it's raw but I still eat it I need more to life than my own cravings I feel like my confidence is fading I feel like sometimes I sit alone In the darkness just to feel at home I feel the clothes grow tight I think I've grown Grown tired of suffering on my own