Paradigm

Sitting here, chilling in my underwear Not a care, feeling my surrender to a spirit near Still you feel for the end of the book Another child left dead is a life that you took And when I looked into the light I was shook 'Cause all I saw inside the mirror was a liar and crook It took a little bit of time to give up It took a little bit of losing everything that I love It took a flatline singing it's because of the drugs It took a hard right beating on my chest to wake up And, honestly, I wasn't giving a f*ck Could hardly see myself surrounded by the damage I'd done Cold winters, no visits Don't miss ya; you could kick rocks and die I'm so hungry with no money It ain't funny how I fucked up my life I had a chance to take a chance, and I did it I lost a lot of friends in calling them victims Somewhere along the line I started to listen To every word that anybody had to offer my sickness Man, it's kinda off how I'm living In the constant back and forth between conflict and conviction I'd slit my fucking wrists if you'd listen But when the blood dripped dry I would make my decision Passion is product of watching faces smile I've been laughing and also losing my patience now Run me ragged until I got this shit figured out I am just a bit of an attention-seeking lonely child Passion is product of watching faces smile I've been laughing and also losing my patience now Run me ragged until I got this shit figured out I am just a bit of an attention-seeking lonely child I'm just a lonely child I'm just a lonely child I'm just a lonely child I'm just a lonely child