Proud of It

You can see the pain in my eyes When I'm going through some shit you won't know its a disguise Blowing sour d smoke up in the skies I'm just trying to be the best man I can baby I tried, I know I fucked up, I've done fucked up Remember the first day that I met you, I thought I lucked up Lately you been acting mad different I guess its tough love I rather see you being with me then see you cuffed up Im on the road trying to get this cash Got tired of posting on the ave, I'm trying to focus on a bag I got tired of being broke and started popping tags Was trying to live that "BMF" life, "Blowing Money Fast" She said, I don't want you scamming baby Shawty just be quiet hold this hammer baby I ain't trying to be disrespectful it's just my grammar baby This life too legit to quit, no MC Hammer baby I've did some shit but I ain't proud of it (I aint proud of it) Just copped a renty for the road I put some miles on it (I put some miles on it) I couldn't make my cousins funeral I missed out on it (damn I missed out on it) I won't give up on this music I put in hours for it (I put in hours for it) Got all this shit on my mind, all this pain in my heart Figure they don't know what you going through if you don't ever talk Karma came hitting from the people I crossed But even the lowest nigga could rise from the dark I should of known from the start It's a lot of reason why I stopped rapping I was swiping shit, making transactions Wasn't focusing on my craft, I was just slacking Out here trying to stretch me a ounce like Mr. Fantastic Smoking on this kusher (Kutcher) I ain't talking Ashton I ain't never fold when its time for action If you always got it on you how he catch you lacking Ima die a real nigga put it in my caption Free all my niggas locked up in the cell Should of never bought them guns out Can't f*ck with rats we cut them ones out You ever see me with a teller, I'm taking funds out I've did some shit but I ain't proud of it (I aint proud of it) Just copped a renty for the road I put some miles on it (I put some miles on it) I couldn't make my cousins funeral I missed out on it (damn I missed out on it) I won't give up on this music I put in hours for it (I put in hours for it)