Sometimes

Sometimes I think about music and want to leave it Sometimes I think about it like its my season Sometimes I feel like all this shit deceiving Most times I feel like yah give me a reason I was out here I was really on my field shit But I don't even really like to rap about drill shit Hate depression I was really all in my feelings Pills was my weapon shit was so hard to heal it But I ain't taking pills no more Pain cant even feel no more I changed cant even chill no more Like things ain't even real no more Contain I don't reveal no more They say don't conceal no more But they never try to hear me They try to act like they feel me Feel like getting into all this music shit Might actually kill me Everybody say they love me But don't ask for the real me Cold hearted to these bitches so I'm actually chilly I don't even stress about it They gone find they best to doubt it I just find my best around it Don't need GPS to route it Life ain't even what it seems Life ain't nothing but a dream Throw knifes at what some believe That's why I can't let them come between Try to use this shit as motivation I'm on my way there so I'm always patient I keep grinding on some day to day shit They hit my line like I know you gone make it People die everyday People born everyday So don't think they don't got replacements Shit based on just how far you'll take it Just beat the odds in any situation I think I'm back again I'll never slack again I just been tapping in To that inner me Yes I got enemies Want to be friend of mees Want to f*ck up my energy I just turn them to memories Sometimes I think about music and want to leave it Sometimes I think about it like its my season Sometimes I feel like all this shit deceiving Most times I feel like yah give me a reason I was out here I was really on my field shit But I don't even really like to rap about drill shit Hate depression I was really all in my feelings Pills was my weapon shit was so hard to heal it Loyalty really nothing above it Family ties feel like its just me my brother and cousin The rest can hate me but f*ck it I love it Rest of the family they too quick to judging That's why I always keep my distance Its so hard for me to accept forgiveness Trust issues with my mom reflect the way I'm living And how I make decisions Based on if they committed Too many wrongs could never make it right You move too wrong they just might take your life Make mistakes but never make it twice I stay polite but disrespect is never taken light Just try to write my wrongs That's why I write my songs Don't know what I be on What type of vibe he on I'm there then I be gone I try to fight be strong I keep on hiking on I'm right where I belong Sometimes I think about music and want to leave it Sometimes I think about it like its my season Sometimes I feel like all this shit deceiving Most times I feel like yah give me a reason I was out here I was really on my field shit But I don't even really like to rap about drill shit Hate depression I was really all in my feelings Pills was my weapon shit was so hard to heal it