Anxiety

Walking through this maze again empty feeling dead Recalling trauma's from events that never left my head Suggested mechanisms only place me on decent Sloping, hoping not to lose my good intent Passion on the rise but this mask is pulling tight Tapping on my thoughts enforcing me to fall Tracking down this passage Tryn'a understand what happened Searching hidden messages but cannot read the caption Anti-depressants only serve to make me worse I see my reflection and I'm questioning my worth I gave up everything I know to be a lie Now I'm floating trying hard to get by I let my Nightmares creep and present fright Drowning in my own thoughts but falling from a great height About to hit the ground but my eyes wide Body hot, cold sweat, tight chest feeling I'm about to die This grip's so tight on my chest I might just Keel over in the height of Anxiety Sweating and confused What the f*ck can I do Pop another pill, it will pass soon Feel like I will vomit but I'm far from the bathroom Stuck in A rut unable to escape this Anxiety Will I ever break this I don't know how much longer I can maintain this I don't regret taking steps to a life that I crave Many thought it was stupid Others thought it was brave But none who believe and that's what really get's to me I truly try to be a better me But will I ever be? I never meant to become my enemy When self love is in jeopardy Bad memories revoke a reality Draining energy in need of amphetamine Now I'm mad at me, for feeling so low Finding it hard to breathe With demons digging deeper inside of me Drowning in darkness I'm in need of a lighter breeze Feeling like I'm on repeat like the prescriptions the doctor keeps prescribing me But sugar coats don't last in the storm Disappearing like daddies when the bastard's are born I got the kind of emotions I never let show Repressing depression I guess I will never know The root cause of the feelings I struggle to let go This grip's so tight on my chest I might just Keel over in the height of Anxiety Sweating and confused What the f*ck can I do Pop another pill, it will pass soon Feel like I will vomit but I'm far from the bathroom Stuck in a rut unable to escape this Anxiety Will I ever break this I don't know how much longer I can maintain this