faking

Smiling just to go and cry my eyes later Tryna be conscious don't want any misconceptions on my behavior Should've stayed home need time to myself At the same time happy to go out and be somebody else Going through motions is so hard to do Lying to myself more than anyone cause I can't accept the truth It's easier to say I'm ok Than to try and explain So I'll just keep faking Crumbling deep down, not making a sound I'll just keep faking Until that smile is genuine and I'm at peace within I'll just keep faking Can't talk to anyone even though the questions keep coming I'd rather play it cool than turn it into something How do I express that I feel alone Surrounded by love and never alone Broken but don't know where to start Think I gave out too many pieces of my heart Now I'm looking for the love that I gave It's evading me so now nowhere feels safe At war with myself, still tryna blame someone else When I'm the one that got me here, and the decision was clear Going through motions is so hard to do Lying to myself more than anyone cause I can't accept the truth It's easier to say I'm ok Than to try and explain So I'll just keep faking Crumbling deep down, not making a sound I'll just keep faking Until that smile is genuine and I'm at peace within I'll just keep faking