Spaghetti

It's been a minute since I did this Give me a blank canvas, I gotta paint me a picture Something's I'll never forget, try my hardest not to remember I'm loaded these perkys got me emotional, in my feelings Told my homie that I was low so he threw me a couple bricks But I was talking bout mentally, I been feeling like shit And I'll never let that shit get to me it f*ck it is what it is Reminiscing when me and brodie hit that lick on that crib Now my nigga no longer here I hope I see him again Or will I go down to hell and burn for everything I did My mama be tryna tell me go see the reverend, repent But I be tryna tell mama can't walk in church with these sticks So she just pray for me I remember them days when I used to take from her I hid all of my pain, I just ran away from it Was with Slim everyday, he took himself away from me I can't even spin, I can't get revenge God forgive my sins Why I ain't come back and see granny before she died that made me sick Why they tell me stay in school then act surprised when I had quit Know My Ga-Ga would be rooting, I know he proud of me, I did it On a death race to my doom, same place they found me where I'll finish It's been a helluva race I been busy trying to keep up the Pace I been focused tryna create the wave Searching for my soul I don't really know I think I lost it somewhere on the way I been chasing goals, with my eyes closed I can do this shit on my darkest day Now let us pray And it's about the feeling But lately I ain't been able to feel shit Drugs got me real sick Every once in awhile I get so high that I look up to the sky to come down It's been a minute since I did this but I think that I've found Everything that I been missing so the timing is now Still can't feel nothing These perckys got me so numb She say let me show you something just sit this under yo tongue I don't do no passing I be abusing my fucking lungs And naw I ain't passive nigga I'm using all of my guns I'm busy surpassing niggas, I'm tryna get out the slums I got room for nothing but money moves on my schedule Mama send me lectures, I promise her I'll do better My bitch keep acting extra she mad that we not together I don't know what to tell her, I'm tryna make sure we better Ashes falling down from my blunt, holes in my sweater I been sitting back for some months stacking my cheddar Now these niggas talking all tough teach em a lesson Yea imma get em together My brothers still with me no matter what Still smoking like I'm a chimney I just can't put down the blunts Just emptied my prescription so I'm finna fill up a cup I know I said I'd kick it but I just can't give the shit up I need a refill Reminisce to them days I was drowning downing them e-pills Rolling I'm up for days they can't even fathom how he feel Smoking straight to the face when I'm down and out I see Nique still I hope he save me a place up in heaven that shit a be chill