hate that lives inside of me

Deep down I been feeling like a lost cause Everything go wrong Is my fault I can go up straight Then I fall Could it be from the way That I ball Wait Never mind that Fucc what I thought This is just the downfall This is my downfall Who gone be there When I call Oooouuu Aahhhh Why waste my time I said Oooouuu Aahhhh Why waste my time I said Rollin rollin I been going going I just need some help So I can focus focus I don't know it know it I don't know it know it Why every chance I get I just blow it blow it I'm just hoping Hoping That you know it Know it Yea Said I'm hoping That you know it These days Things just don't feel the same Nah Nah Nah Every single day I be feeling this pain God damn Tryna do right But I can't find a way Feeling so lost Feeling so lost I been so lost Deep down I been feeling like a lost cause Everything go wrong Is my fault I can go up straight Then I fall Could it be from the way That I ball Wait Never mind that Fucc what I thought This is just the downfall This is my downfall Who gone be there When I call Lost my cousin at the age of 23 Now it got me out here wanna Bust a shot like I'm 23 (Dooh dooh) Switching up the flow Like you never knew me (Nah) I ride with paranoia So I keep a tooley Tryna do right Just can't seem to find a way All the shit that I battle Got so much on my plate Suicidal thoughts Maybe I can end this pain Suicidal thoughts Maybe I can end this pain Rollin rollin I been going going I just need some help So I can focus focus I don't know it know it I don't know it know it Why every chance I get I just blow it blow it I'm just hoping Hoping That you know it Know it These days Things just don't feel the same Nah Nah Nah Every single day I be feeling this pain God damn Tryna do right But I can't find a way Feeling so lost Feeling so lost I been so lost Lost