January Night

That night My dreams actualized My heartbreak Was standing before my very eyes And I felt my heart sink But I put on a smile Because weakness is a disease And I'm sick inside I don't want to be sad anymore I don't want to feel bad anymore I don't want to compare I don't want to move on This fucking nightmare is too long I miss you so much That it hurts in my chest And I don't feel better Since I confessed God I love you And I think you know it I just wish I knew how to show it That January night That January night Cold because I was hurting Acted like I barely knew you Hugged you like I had to Left you like it was easy to But to tell you the truth I came back to Twelve for you But too little, too late And I cried for you I don't want to be sad anymore I don't want to feel bad anymore I don't want to compare I don't want to move on This fucking nightmare is too long I miss you so much That it hurts in my chest And I don't feel better Since I confessed God I love you And I think you know it I just wish I knew how to show it That January night That January night What were the chances We'd meet that night Seems like fate Likes to hurt me inside My heart broke the hardest That January night I don't want to be sad anymore I don't want to feel bad anymore I don't want to compare I don't want to move on This fucking nightmare is too long I miss you so much That it hurts in my chest And I don't feel better Since I confessed God I love you And I think you know it I just wish I knew how to show it That January night That January night