Saltwater

Losing interest in sleep or energy drinks any more You can find me awake at 4 am In the back of my old car I don't care about the weather at all Whether it's sunny skies or storms Tears on my face I can walk in the rain & my sadness is left ignored I've tried counting sheep But never understood what for Caffeine always makes me aware Of all the hurt I store I can't tell if it gets better at all If it is cold or if it's warm But years of the same thing always Paints a picture I get bored of I got the names of all my friends Tattooed in black ink on my heart I thought it would help them stay but Now farewells are feeling harder One door closes more should unlock but My hands aren't able to open them up So I remain inside this room As I'm drowning in salt water Drowning in salt water I know how it seems if I bring this up About fifteen times a month But it's only you and a handful I can handle talking to this much Is it all in my dreams if I believe That we're running out of love I put you up on a pedestal You weren't ready for & I never measured up I wish you wouldn't care if I was open I wish you wouldn't care if I was weak I wish you wouldn't care if I was curious I wish you wouldn't care if I was offbeat I wish you wouldn't care if I was different I wish you wouldn't care if I felt defeat I wish you wouldn't care if I was quiet I wish you wouldn't care if I was me I wish you wouldn't care when I was crying I wish you wouldn't care when I would bleed I wish you wouldn't carry on like you did I wish you didn't carry my heartbeat I wish you wouldn't stare across the darkness I wish you wouldn't laugh at everything I wish you wouldn't care if I was honest I wish you wouldn't care when I was me (I wish you wouldn't care)