All My Fault

I'm just gonna let it out No writtens or nothing right here But it's the truth I'll admit I haven't grown up yet Insecurities are always making me upset Always making me crying tears at night I just wish that everything was just gonna be alright But I don't even know who I am anymore Do I want to self medicate go to the floor? I don't want to self medicate anymore But I still do it and I do know why I get so obsessed all the time I get so upset now all the time Lying to my parents so I let the adolescents Take advantage of what I have and every single blessing I just let 'em take advantage because I crave all the company (All the company) I just let her take advantage cause I want someone to be lovin' me (To be lovin' me) And i'm so sick and tired of this happening but it's all my fault And i'm so sick and tired of this happening but it's all my fault Always make excuses for the horrible actions But I feel so bad when it happens And I always put you all above myself And no I never ever been able to love myself Always hate the fact that I live with CP And I know everybody else doesn't see me As a man who is walking with a limp Used to be so happy I would never be a simp Never be the one to expose my feelings Now I do it everyday I can't conceal it Especially to Mom and Mike I'm so embarrassed Been an awful son and you've been great parents still I just let 'em take advantage because I crave all the company (All the company) I just let her take advantage cause I want someone to be lovin' me (To be lovin' me) And i'm so sick and tired of this happening but it's all my fault And i'm so sick and tired of this happening but it's all my fault Given me so many blessings I don't know what to say I apologize and I'm really gonna do whatever it takes to change And I know I don't love myself but I will get there one day