Life of a Perfectionist

Man i've been going through a creationist depression lately. I need to let something out you know? Feels like every beat just sounds the same All my words are becoming erased Right now there ain't no place to escape My therapy is turning to disgrace Feelin' like I'm speakin' too weak Currently got fragile vocal chords Everything I say is so critiqued My mind and I can't take this anymore Look I need way less judgment I put too much pressure on Feels like I will plummet 'Fore I touch the echelon Insecure about the stats So concerned about impact I forget i'm writing raps That's just what it is at that Voice inside is trembling Mind is disassembling All the noise is deafening Man it's so unsettling Try to journal to release Meditate to calm the beast Really craving mental peace Need perfection to achieve Life of a perfectionist Life of a perfectionist Look Nowadays I feel like life is movin' way too fast I can't even stop for gas or take a break at that Feelin' like a trucker driving just on mountain dew Don't know what i'm doing but at least i'm getting to What I say is making money even if it's cents Pennies to the dollar but at least i'm making sense When I get depressed I feel i'm trapped inside a tense Past regret and future worry clouding my present I wish somebody could see perfection paralysis If it isn't perfect then I'm livin' so passionless Callin' up my therapist for psychoanalysis Rather talk to her because I know she can handle it Life of a perfectionist Life of a perfectionist