Out of Control

I'm sorry if this is hard to listen to But I got to let it out man Honestly should've seen all of this coming I've been escaping avoiding and running I am an addict, addicted to pills Addicted to honestly see how it feels Don't you remember when I made emotionless? After a year I am feeling the same Talk about feelings but feeling the hopelessness The rejection the trauma and pain I went to opiates only to cope I go to music now only for hope Really I should be expressing myself Instead of just keeping it all on the shelf Now, I'm sick and tired of hiding The man I became but the man that I am Right now I'm fighting off all of these demons As everything currently just hit the fan I chose to burn, too many bridges I chose to learn, too many lessons I know that writing about it is not gonna fix it But I have one hell of a blessing Prefrontal cortex is in adolescence Don't you expect all the highs and the lows? Don't you expect when I'm sending a message At times I do not know what to compose? I'm out of control, I know that I am I'm going insane, I know that I am I'm out of control, I know that I am I'm going insane, I know that I am I'm out of control, I know that I am I'm going insane, I know that I am I'm out of control, I know that I am I'm going insane, I know that I am I let other people control how I think My heart and my mind are never in sync I've always thought if I added more pressure I was gonna swim, I went to sink I went to pills, I went to drinks I went to rage, blackout and blink Wake up and I would regret everything All for attention like promising rings Validation I crave I'm a fiend My dedication is all for the dream I know emotionally I'm extreme This is what happens when you see defeat Spend every hour and minute to rap Sorry that mentally I had to snap Sorry I've treated so many so bad This is what happens when you're going mad I'm out of control, I know that I am I'm going insane, I know that I am I'm out of control, I know that I am I'm going insane, I know that I am I'm out of control but i'm trying to change Out of control but i'm trying to change Out of control but i'm going to therapy Really because I am trying to change Out of control and i'm trying to change Out of control and i'm trying to change Out of control but i'm doing just everything In my power to try and just change