I know I'm lying...

Always so wrong, guess I'll never stop searching Heartbroken need me a surgeon Looking for something I feel like its urgent Just tell me you love me in person Feeling so down I just say I'm ok when I know I'm lying I don't think that it's working I just started living day by day I gave up being perfect And I keep looking for something I know I'll find it And you know im honest But you think that I been lying And Im just afraid that sometimes They hear me crying I just want you to myself Baby I won't stop trying Devil on my shoulder telling me what to say And to be honest it just feel like I been waiting everyday But waiting for what? And I'm still tryna figure that out You gon' hate all the shit that's gon' come out my mouth And I hate the way I never figure it out All this fighting and fussing what's that all about? Ouu, having nightmares Wake up out my sleep and I start wishing you were right there See you in my dreams it kinda feels like you reside there And you start ripping out my heart, I kinda wish that you would fight fair Hold on like why am I wasting my time? I know you don't love me, I said I'll be fine You know I always say that I mostly be lying Cause I'm so fucking tired of missing the signs, like woah And that shit be hurting my pride And I'm kinda embarrassed I wish i could hide And I love you platonically, but bae I honestly want you forever like can you be mine? Eye to eye, that's something we'll never see I been dying to get you right next to me I decided this just can't be right Made me rethink my life No I don't feel alright And it's much deeper than the surface something's broken inside Always so wrong, guess I'll never stop searching Heartbroken need me a surgeon Looking for something I feel like its urgent Just tell me you love me in person Feeling so down I just say I'm ok when I know I'm lying I don't think that it's working I just started living day by day I gave up being perfect And I keep looking for something I know I'll find it And you know im honest But you think that I been lying And Im just afraid that sometimes They hear me crying I just want you to myself Baby I won't stop trying