please tell me that i'm still dreaming

Yeah, I don't even know what I should say My life feel like a movie but that don't mean that it's great Can't believe that's how you'd do me now my life just feel so gray Damn near hoping someone shoot me, maybe then I can escape Guess I'll see you in hell, cause I messed up too much And I know that I'll fail, might as well just give up When I needed you there, you just fell out of love And I hope that you know that I'm still trying to do what's best for you Woah, I don't got much left to lose No one can see it through my shoes Oh, please tell me I'm still dreaming Cause I can't go on every day like this Oh, I just hope I get one wish Oh, hoping that I can let you go What's the matter with you? Well, m-my girlfriend broke up with me Sure does hurt I guess you could join up with us if you want Yeah, we're gonna go to the graveyard and write poems about death and how pointless life is Uh, no thanks, I love life Huh?! But you just got dumped?! Well yeah, and I'm sad But at the same time I'm really happy that something can make me feel that sad It's like- i-it makes me feel alive, y'know It makes me feel human The only way I could feel this sad now is if I felt something really good before So I have to take the bad with the good So I guess what I'm feeling is a beautiful sadness I guess that sounds stupid