Lost

I've been lost down an old back road I've been searching, searching my soul I've been lost thinking I'm alone I've been searching searching my soul Waking up from a hangover cocaine n vodka Depression running down my mind Neglect my kids my wife and my problems Three day binge I'm crying Cuz i don't wanna be this monster Day filled with lies cuz my wife keeps telling me stop it But i'm focused on the party Tryna find another scene that's popping Or a drug addict friend to buy another gram So i can have some addict options Never even think about death Tootin up a gram like nothing Im staring out the window every scares me Cuz i'm thinking that the cops is coming Is this real, I don't have a clue how the f*ck i really feel Can't seem to chill now i can't seem to deal Twelve hours since my last meal But only ten minutes from my last line Used to be such a stand up guy Now i'm feeling like i gotta glass spine I've been lost down n old back road I've been searching, searching my soul I've been lost thinking I'm alone I've been searching searching my soul Whoa that's a whole Lotta snow Feel the frostbite on my nose Feeling lost don't know where to go Pouring out a bottle got me pouring out my soul Conjuring the monsters so they overthrow my morals Ingesting poison spiral down turmoil Plant my toes in the ground on firm soil But my heads in the clouds make my brain cells boil Snake squeezing so tight around my neck coiled I definitely fucked up royal The only person really loved me I was disloyal Life went up in smoke like coke on foil O' Lord Now i'm tryna mend shit Can't help that My actions relentless Now I'm Searching for repentance But can't be mad if its not accepted The devil definitely had a death wish But I escaped before being breathless But my mistakes made me dead sick Can't believe I betrayed the one that best fits F*ck I can't take back what I just did Contemplating why I exist But I couldn't plan out my exit Naw I couldn't plan out my mother fucking exit I've been lost down n old back road I've been searching, searching my soul I've been lost thinking I'm alone I've been searching searching my soul